fine!

sikit pun xkisah
FINE!

DIA

everytime I feel bad

dia slalu muncul

dgn nasihat dia

TQ Allah~

Kau hantarkan dia untukku

^__________________^

beware!

I wonder why FB has a like button and no unlike button...
I have a lot of things to unlike on FB...
Mark, if possible, pls make one... ^^

some people, they don't realize what are the things that they like on FB.
when they found it interesting, they'll simply like it.
how about dosa n pahala?
do they realize that they are not supposed to like certain things
especially things that related to dosa?
for example; pictures of people who do not cover their aurah properly.
if you like it, it means that you support that kind of thing and at the same time
you'll also dapat dosa tau?!

so, people!
pls, think carefully before you wanna do something.
we don't want to get saham dosa free2 je kan??
so think, think and think!
I also write this to remind myself.
wallahualam~

permudahkanlah urusanku

InsyaAllah....

Kita permudahkan kerja orang

nanti Allah permudahkan kerja kita

amin~

who would like to accompany me?

I would like to scream as loud as I can

Thank you Allah...

Alhamdulillah...

ak masih bernafas d bumi Allah...

kdg2 mcm2 pkara blaku d saat mcm2 pkara plu dslesaikan...

ak ksuntukan masa...

but at least i got the best news ever in my life.

and at least, ia bleh jd pncetus smgt utk ak...

Alhamdulillah...

wktu2 mcm ni I know I only have Allah with me...

just like baris2 poem yg ak analysis aritu...

'no one can save me'

'no one ever will'

Alhamdulillah...

xleh nak slhkan diorg jgk sbb they no nothing...

Ya Allah...

tlg beri ak ksempatan utk slesaikan sgla2nya dlu...

insyaAllah....

masih ada masa eryn...

be considerable

sometimes mmg la work as individual tu lg sng...
but sometimes team work pn pntg jgk...
if you asyk nk wat keje individual je,
g duduk kat gua!
hah time tu, pndai2 la ko!
                ^__^

i shouldn't be like that isn't it?

when...
single -----> in a relationship
people....
"wahh!!! congrats!!!"

but when...
in a relationship -----> single
people....
"hahh??? why??? pity you~
thank God I still have my baby."

why is it happened?
when it shouldn't happen...
you, people, people...
May Allah shows you the right way...
May Allah shows me the right way...
May Allah bless us...

wahai hati~

ada cahaya terang,

membawa ikhlasan,

jauh lebih baik,

luar biasa,

tapi aku tak nampak.

ada kegelapan,

dalam kepura-puraan,

tak sehebat mana,

biasa,

tapi itu yang aku nak.

sengaja aku biarkan,

aku kosongkan,

aku tinggalkan,

aku pujuk hati,

jangan sampai mati,

tunggu je lah nanti.

nobody knows nobody will

i love poems,

since when?

I dont know.

i love wednesday,

since when?

i never know.

i hate poems,

i know, i wont.

i hate wednesday,

i know, i shouldnt.

one thing for sure,

my poems and wednesday,

wont be the same anymore.

thanks to u,

now i know...

soooooooo sadddddddddd~

it's ok if u ignore me now

because sometimes i ignore u too

but if u need me, how?

can i just continue to ignore u?

never think of others

yeah it's me, nahh.. it's u

what u give u'll get back, of coz

i pray that i'll never be like u

b'coz i always kutuk u~

HAHAHAHA! :D

p/s: saya tahu saya TERUK! 

A & B

bila si A muncul, si B pun muncul...
bila si A hilang, si B pun hilang...
anyway, I'm happy! ^__^V

stupid!

being stupid is your hobby 

or 

you were born with it!

Serves me right!

situation would be easier if he left me first. However..
the situation now became more complicated because I'm the one who left him.

Aigoo~

Currently in Tg.Malim... huhhh~

HB belated birthday...

May peace be upon u...

p/s: I can feel the darkness in my heart

yarkkk!! :(

p.s: I Love You

Hello there!
Eid Mubarak! Wishing you a blessed eid!
Look at my title up there ^^, hehe...you know it is about the movie right. Yeah, when I watched that movie, 1st thing came across my head was...

"ahh! ni sume dlm movie je bleh la...mana ada couple mcm ni lg..

yg bnyk kubur laki/bini masih merah, diorg dh kawin lain."

But today, my perception has changed. It does exist! I went to my neighbor's house for raya visit, and I just realized that my neighbor, makcik H and pakcik H ni very romantic! I don't really like romantic kind of men but one thing that I really adore is pakcik H will call makcik H 3times a day when he is at his work. Wow! and they are old people, older than my parents. AND they did that since they got married. isn't it 'daebak!' pakcik H will call makcik H just to ask about breakfast, lunch, and what is she doing, is she ok at home with their kids. I am really impressed to know that this kind of couple is exist!

For me, pakcik H is not really romantic, but he loves, cares and misses his wife so much. In his life there is no other special woman except his wife. (and his mother of course) I think they have been married for at least 27 years and they still look like a newly married couple. Oh, so sweet!

p.s: I hope I will find someone like pakcik H! ^__^V

Nur Dayana Batrisya

Salam Ramadhan

Datang dan perginya seseorang yang tidak kita duga.
Yang pergi_Tok Cik: my last tok wan. pasni dah xde lg mana2 atok utk ak tumpang kasih. Semoga beliau di tempatkan dalam kalangan orang2 yang beriman.

Yang datang_Nur Dayana Batrisya
Today, I met her. She alive now, healthy, cute, fair just like other babies. She is about 1year old. What do you expect from me when I see a baby like that? Of course I would love to hug and kiss her. But! I cant! I was just looking at her with watery eyes. Why? because of her father's name is A.S.
Yup! She is his daughter. He really named his daughter with that name. The name that he had told me about 6years ago. He said he love that name. Nur Dayana Batrisya.
I wonder why he brought his family to my Tok Cik's funeral. Wife dia ada kena mengena ke? Aah, lantakla malas aku nak amek tau. I was really shocked to see him there. When I first saw him, I felt like a mix fruit. All sorts of feelings bergaduh2 nak kuar. Tmbhn plak he looks good, as usual. I think mulut ak agak ternganga nmpk dia td. (hrp2 xde org prasan. haish! puasa!)
I didn't speak a word pun ngan wife dia even though she was sitting right next to me. Ko pun xde tmpt lain ke nak bwk wife ko duduk? sblh ak jgk! pastu asyik main pas2 anak dpn ak. sakit mata n hati ak tau x?! Ko pun bkn tau sgt jga mata ko tu! Dah la bln puasa dok tgk2 org plak! Slmt ak bwk tisu! Huhh~ T__T

It is hurt to be hurt ~ I have to be strong! Miss Eryn, fighting!

Wonder Girl vs Miss A

Assalamualaikum...
Salam Ramadhan..
"kuih org bnyk xbuat lg..ko sibuk plak kat sini"
_ "ok2, jap je...dh lama kot xtulis blog"

Q: Are you going to talk about Wonder Girl's latest song 'Like This'?
A: no...
Q: How about the cutest Miss A member Min?
A: NO!

haish~
Miss A is one of my friend la...miss? oh yes yess! ^__~

Miss A, I know you'll never read this..i think so...
We dont really have a close relationship, i guess..
it can be called an on and off relationship...
Sometimes we ignore each other's calls and texts
then, we give each other stupid excuses, i know we did...
Sometimes we get angry with each other for no specific reason
I know I'm the one who always wake up on the wrong side of the bed, I'm sorry...
We are totally different
you have a weird style and mine is unique, I'm sure... :-D haha~

But, I wonder..until now, we are still together...
sometimes you look like you hate me...
sometimes you show your love to me...
which one is your 'barbie character' I mean plastic!
I keep wondering what is your perception of me?
dont get me wrong, I love you and I wanna be your friend until the end of my life...
we shared so many things in the past and I wanna share my future memories with you.

I'm not a good friend because I was born only to be a good daughter.
I'm not going to be your best friend because I'm the best daughter for my parents.
I cant be good in two roles, that's one of my weaknesses.
But! you can count on me anytime.
I may not be a good adviser, but I'm a good listener, I'm sure...
Remember, I cant be good in two roles.

I love you

'chingu ya'

why? why must you make me crazy???

we post sth like almost the same in about just 10mins different. I want to say sth like this:

“ Tidak halal bagi seseorang muslim itu untuk tidak bercakap kepada saudaranya lebih dari 3 hari, sesiapa yg tidak mahu bercakap dengan saudaranya lebih dari 3 hari lalu ia mati maka ia masuk neraka.” (HR. Abu Daud)

then you posted this:

‎"Dan tidaklah sama (kesannya dan hukumnya) perbuatan yang baik dan perbuatan yang jahat. Tolaklah (kejahatan yang ditujukan kepadamu) dengan cara yang lebih baik, apabila engkau berlaku demikian maka orang yang menaruh rasa permusuhan terhadapmu, dengan serta merta akan menjadi seolah-olah seorang sahabat karib." ( Fusshilat : 34 )

Firman Allah ini jelas menyatakan tentang metode penyelesaian masalah pergaduhan atau pertelingkahan.

Semestinya kita akan MARAH jika seseorang melakukan kejahatan kepada kita.

Persoalannya, adakah kita tidak pernah melakukan kejahatan kepada orang lain?

Mungkin Allah menganugerahkan seseorang untuk menyakitkan hati kita supaya kita boleh berfikir adakah Allah akan marah jika melakukan maksiat kepadanya? 

Oleh itu, berlapang dada atas kejahatan yang menimpa diri kita.

Maaf itu adalah cara penyelesaian yang terbaik.

#betullakadangkadangpergaduhanakanmembuatkanpersahabatanakanjadilebihutuh#

why? how? huh??

can you read my mind or what??

but anyway, thanks!

everything that you posted makes me smile...

so at least today I'll smile the whole day! hihihi!!!

^_____________^

protest!

i've hurt even more it's just that i never tell u...

sometimes we don't realize our own mistakes while always realize others' mistakes...
sometimes we always blaming others while actually it's our fault...
sometimes we are just pretending to be nice while actually we are not...
sometimes it's hurt to know the truth but actually it's better to know...
sometimes we are too ego, proud to be ourselves while others might feel annoying...
sometimes it's better to ignore than care...
sometimes we misunderstood but never ask again...
sometimes people see us at the bad side only and never know our true self...
sometimes people see others are better than us while again they don't know the truth...
sometimes we used bad words without any intention, but do we realize what other people feel?

muhasabah diri sendiri...
sentiasa perbaiki diri...
wallahualam...

habeh juo presentation 2P den!

hahaha! lalalala! at last! alhamdulillah...everything went smoothly..maybe it was not exactly like what i've planned but yeah, it's good...eventhough i was like a stupid person reading the text in english so badly. Malu giler kot! but at least dh selesai..watpe nak pk lg! hahaha! hatiku gumbira!
maybe berkat sahabat2 yg m'doakan... ^__^v
thank YOU! 
and berkat i'm fasting today, thanks to my roomate yg igtkan...if not, ak pun alpa...
may all of us be blessed! YEAY! 

nobody knows except YOU

these

few
days
people
saw
me
as
the
happiest
person
but
actually
deep
inside
me
there's
a
saddest
girl
Ya Allah...
I'm Yours...

ibu..do u really mean it...

i called my mum this morning to talked about my future, my situation n my feelings right now. her response makes me a bit nervous..huh~ do know that feeling when your parents are like supporting u to get married n to me it's like they want me to stay away from them, just because i'm old enough to be a wife. i feel like i'm not ready to be a wife but she said conversely. she'll also said that she'll be glad if....ahh, nevermind...i don't wanna said it unless it's going to be true. it's going to be weird. i used to be my parents' baby n what's going to happen if i got married? they won't treat me the same as before. my mum said, 'ala...mula2 je ckp cmtu..nnt dh kawin nnt ko xigt dh kat ibu..busy ngn laki ko je..' i feel like i wanna cry when i heard this.. no mum, that's not going to happen, i'm promise that!
'ibu sentiasa doakn yg tebaik utk anak2 ibu' she always says this and it makes me smile.. i love u ibu..i don't wanna leave u..even though i know the time will come... :(

who changes who?

Smile. I always smile when I think of him...the ustaz. I'm sure he'll never read this post so that I dare to write about him.
the ustaz to me is so different. of course because he's an USTAZ! what can I expect from him is just his words and his sayings which are so comforting. I can feel that I could easily be close to him in his way of treating me. he treats me well, I can say that. everyone who talks to him will feel the same way that I feel. He's nice, he's good in religion, he's sensitive and he's smart with a good sense of humour. he really touches my heart and I admire him.
but, when I think of this twice, I feel like I am... (wait, while I was typing this, he likes my new status on FB just now. again, I SMILE!) OK, back to my story. - I feel like I am a bad person who is going to change him into a person who  is as bad as me. while actually he's supposed to change me right? I'm so afraid about this...seriously n honestly, I wanna be his close friend, I want him to be someone who I can refer to, I don't want to lose him by avoiding him. but I'm afraid that my character will influence him to be bad. oh ustaz...pls be strong! pls remains to be the way u are and let me change myself to be a good person as u...
besides, somehow I feel like I am just 'perasan'! the ustaz will never look at me pun... he's just doing his dakwah la... of course he treats his other friends the same. he's trying to change people in his own way by being close to them n then delivers his dakwah. that's what happened between us actually. I should really think like this so that I won't be thinking too far about our relationship. aik! the way I said our relationship mcm la ada something..hehehe~

am i really ready?

out of 5000 graduates, only 300 graduates are going to be posting here, in semenanjung. major factor here because they were married. when i think about this last night. i said to my friends that i wanna get married before posting so that i can be posting here in semenanjung. of course, if u ask future teachers, especially female students, they don't want to be send to sabah or sarawak. so same goes to me. i don't think i manage to survive there ALONE! oh my....i really DON'T WANT TO BE ALONE! there's no life there, n i could die because of being bored! there's no family, no more games for me, no TV, no shopping mall! n i really really gonna die because of fooooodddd!!!! pls la...dont imagine u could hv ice cream when it's hot, no pizza hut, no mum's special treats...but yes..u'll get a lot of experience and experience is the best teacher. but  NO! still no! i'm not ready to go there!

but, am i ready to get married? i mean MARRIED?? i always call my self miss eryn n suddenly i have to change it to MRS ERYN? huh....
just now, i call my dad n tell him about this and he said 'hah, kawin la!' n said, 'tp xde calon, ayah carikan la~' n guess what? he just laughing! =.=" do u think he's going to find someone for me? really? if yes~  hahaha! then i'll be married in about a year or two from now? what's going to happen in my future, nobody knows except Him. I'm sure Allah had prepared the best for me and i trust Him. InsyaAllah.. i'm going to be OK! peace!!!

I'm a stalker!

Happy happy happy.....lalalalalala~

Crazy crazy crazy.......

stay the way u r so then I can continue looking at u...

when i see u r online, i'm smiling...

when i read ur status i'm smiling even wider...

when u like my status i'm laughing...

when u comment on my status i feel like crazy....

when i keep looking at ur photo album every single day, i feel like flying...

oopps!!! hehehe~

i know who i am n u'll never look at someone like me..

but at least by just be ur stalker, i know i'm happy...

pls stay the way u r...

argghhhhhh~~~~

^______^

tired~

fuh! lama giler xde new post kat sini...ala bkn ada org nk bca pun..trima je la hakikat...caitt!
em...nothing much happened pun...except I realized sth. I'm tired..really tired! seriously! I'm tired of being 'kepala'... do u get what i mean? I dont like doing last minute work. if i could, i wanna settle all my work as soon as possible. I always want to be prepared. I hate waiting! I always think what I'm going to do at least a day before it happen. it's hard to explain who I am. but if u know me well, u should know better. I'm not saying that I'm perfect or I'm good but that's me. a normal human being who maybe hv and lack of sth.
when I was acting like ketua, people misunderstood me. but if i dont act like that there will be no work done. even sometimes I feel like ahh! mls la nk ambik tau. but still, i'll care.
i'm tired....
i always saying the truth, i'm the honest person that u'll never meet an honest person better. but still, the truth is hurt. people saying sth behind u..u dont know that and i'm just telling the truth in front of u and u see me as a bad person. do u think everybody else say nothing about u? they r hypocrite! they show that they are good to u in front of u but the say sth bad behind u. i know u dont understand what i'm going to explain. my english teruk giler. but lantak la! ad ak ksh!
i'm tired.....
i see that, when people call someone who is older than them 'kakak',  they at least see the 'batasan' and give some respect to the kakak. if this means i can get some respect n they know batasan. I want them to call me kakak. i dont care if i look old with the 'kakak'. i just want some respect! i hv a brother who also just one year younger than me but he respects me! why cant them? they are not my family, they hv no relationship with me! dont they feel ashamed? biane~
i'm tired....
really tired....
i'm sorry~

my reality...

Hello there! Long time no see? hehehe~

Current location: KAB, Tg. Malim T___T

Huh...don't know what to do...I need u... CRaZY!!! lalalalalalala~

I miss my cat! OK actually it's not MY cat and I don't know who's the owner of the cat. It always come to my house, I can say everyday n sometimes a whole day it stays just around my house. So, I consider it as my cat... My ayah said, "dia balik umah mak dia la tu, ko tu mak angkat dia je." when I can't found it around my house. HUH!
I call it Lembu...because the 1st time I saw it I said to my youngest brother that one of my friend loves black n white spots because it looks like N.Z cow. So, he said why not we call it Lembu. I said we'll try. n finally that's its name.
Day by day...and now, I'm in love with the cat. I feel like the cat really understands me n when I talk to the cat I feel really good..like all my stress are gone... we always sing together, eat together, play together, everything together-gether la! Lembu is so special to me. When everyone else busy with their human bf, I hv a much better n special bf_ my Lembu. haiyo! wa rasa wa suda gila wo!

I cried this morning because I have to leave it... uwaaa~~~~~~~~~

something~

I've been thinking this since last week...I don't know why...but i smell something fishy... I just feel that something will happen in my next semester. Plus, now, I'm worried about my exam results...I just hope that everything gonna be fine. I don't wanna repeat any paper. I've a lot of things to do in the next semester. I've a lot of heavy subjects to carry... I don't think I can do it alone. I'll easily give up if I'm alone. Thank God, she's with me. You know, I'm lost without you. I've said once that I wanna give up with this study. sometimes I feel like this is all my fault that she got in the same problem with the registration. that's why I did my best this sem to cover all the things I've done. Pls, God, let all things be fine...

p/s: something wrong with my Bluetooth either lappy or hp. argghhh!!! stress~ 

Leaning Tower

Hi there! I just started my sem break for this sem. Last week, I just came back from Klang after visited my brother. On the way home, my father decided to bring us to see the Leaning Tower at the Teluk Intan, Perak. I heard about the leaning tower before but I'd never see it in live. So, I was excited to see it and to know how real the tower is leaning. Here are some photos that I managed to capture.

this is it!

can u see that the Leaning Tower is really leaning to the left!

Yup! it's not my camera but it's the tower!

Leaning Tower was built on 1885.
It hold a water tank on top of it.

This tower will keep leaning to the left. Can u imagine?

this is the left base of the tower, can u see there's sediment there...

 

Malaysian should be proud of this tower :)

If there's Leaning Tower of Pisa, Malaysia also have a Leaning Tower of Teluk Intan! 

Happy Holidays! ^__^V

Home Sweet Home

WAH! It's good to be home....home sweet home.... there's no better place in this world except my home.... I can sleep tightly every night, eat the best breakfast, lunch and dinner, spend my day and night with my family; watching TV, play indoor or outdoor games together, go out for shopping, go out for a walk and wondering around. In short, I can do anything and everything that I really love. Alhamdulillah, I have such an awesome family! I always love my family and I hope I could them more often. ^__^V

have u satisfied?

look! what have you done to the innocent person...

do it! do what you wanna do...

never! dreams to destroy *** life...

forever! we are here for ***~

Lots of LOVE!

Hopefully u read this piece:

Dear friend,

When we knew the truth, we might feel the great pain. but, if we don't know the truth, it will be much more pain...
Be strong to know the truth because for me it's better to know, better late then never...

Patience. The thing that I really need to improve. Maybe. Because I think I've much patience for this.
If not, I must have been a long time run amok. Seriously...

There's a will, there's a way.
Never put off till, what can be done today.

p/s : sorry n thanks for everything~ After this, we might not be the same as before...

S.L.A = S.A.D

SLA MEANS SAD

I'M...

AND...

SO, I'M A...

ALL BECAUSE OF SLA

p/s: DR. MAIZATULLIZA, pls...I just dont want to repeat this paper...because I dont want to meet u again next sem.

Final Exam

To all my family, my siblings, my friends, my relatives, teachers, lecturers, n to those who know me... I'm sorry for everything bad I've done. Pls pray for me. There will be a killer paper for me which is SLA. I hope that I can do my best. 

Good luck my friends!

Happy New Year!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

may this year be a better year than previous year.

Alhamdulillah, there's another year for me.

Thank u Allah.

Eryn, lets change n become a better person!

p/s:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AYAH!

Pls stay healthy n happy!

Just want u to know that u r the man that I love the most!