jatuh

arrggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
OK
konfiden jatuh

= 0 level

T__T

ask myself,

y m i doing ol diss?

and then ask again,

wil dey beliv me if i tel dem?

urrggggghhhhhhhh~

dah tak lama

tak lama lagi dah nak balik kolej
tak lama lagi dah nak mula sem baru
tak lama lagi dah nak mula kelas

klu difikirkan, ak xnk blk kolej, mula sem baru, mula kelas
sebab...nnt
xde lg rasa xnk blk kolej,
xde lg rasa xnk mula sem baru,
xde lg rasa xnk g kelas

ak sronok gila msa hbs skolah dlu
n bila org tnya, ak akn ckp ak xnk kmbli ke zmn skolah
tapi ak rsa xsronok nak hbskn zmn u
sbb ak xnk kmbli ke zmn u lg so ak xnk ia brakhir

dear beb,
u know that i will miss u
honestly i already miss u now
klu org tnya nnt, apa kngn manis msa kat upsi
it's u
n klu org tnya apa kngn pahit yg xleh lupa
it's u too

ak dh wat snarai penuh apa yg ak nak wat sblm hbs sem nnt
yg psti ak nak wat sume tu dgn ko beb.

4thun yg digeruni dlu
4thun yg slalu dtnya2 bila nk hbs bila nk hbs
akhirnya dh nk smpai msanya

p/s: klu ko baca ni, jgn lupa buku lukisan ak yg ko peram 4thun tu. i cant wait to see it ^___^

hati yang dikecilkan

Fakebook - message

"salam. jemput mai kenduri"

"(peta umah)"

mcm ni je cara hg jmput ak. yup! mmg ak kcik ati. ak tgk je kat fb, kwn2 yg len trima kad hg, ad yg hg anta sndri, ad yg hg pos. ak bkn la nk sgt kad hg tu, tp cara hg jmput ak mcm ak ni org biasa, yg hg xbpe knl, hg baru knl, yg dn lain2 la...hai hati.......knp ko dkcilkan sbgitu rupa.....sdgkan hg tu pernah PernaH PERNAH jd kwn rapat ak. nak bgtau btapa rapatnya kita, smpai org kata kita ni lesbian. huhuhu~

hati dikecikkan lagi, mata mnurunkan hujan~

"mai la anta kad kat umah...bkn jauh mana pun...."
"insyaAllah, klu smpat. ada kat penang skang, 3hari lg nak knduri baru blk."
"oo...yeke..xpe pos pn bleh..."

hati jadi sekecil kuman, hujan airmata turun dgn lebat~

Oh, hg blk....kata 3hr lg nk knduri baru blk....oh, tgk la klu smpat. ak ni hanya mnunggu ksempatan hg.

ak xtau sama ada hg sngaja atau xsgaja, hg sdar atau xsdar. tp dh namanya FB ak bleh nmpk sume tu.
facebook hnyalah fakebook.

ak tau kta dh xrapat, xtau apa sbbnya, bila dan bagaimana.
xpe la....

confidence level

someone will be more confident when he/she has something special or can do something special and proud of it.

(I am here!)

someone will be less confident when he/she has lost something or think that they can't do something/anything and feel ashamed about it.

i'm in between the two statements above. sometimes i do feel confident for example when i know what i'm doing is right. and sometimes i'm not, especially when i feel somebody else is better than me and i cant be like him/her.

we can always increase our confidence level. it's about our way of thinking. think positive and u'll be positive and confident.

OK now, i'm going to set my mind. ZzzZ......Zzzz.........Zz................

moden

panas mmg panas! Allah....sbr je la..
klu nak taip kat sini sumenya silap2 nnt ak msuk penjara plak.
ada hak bsuara la sgt kan...
dunia makin moden - katanya
tapi pmikiran makcik pakcik ni makin mundur.
ak xnmpk kat mana modennya. sorry to say la kan..
tutup aurat tu wajib, ko nak pakai apa pakai la asalkan aurat jaga.
pakai jin ke mambang ke sgala mak nenek nak pakai pakai la
fuhh~
seluar slack + bju muslimah = kampung, kolot, ulu.
pergghhhhh~
tak beragak lgsg...
OK fine, nak kata apa kata la.
Islam is my choice.
My diri, my body, my baju, my punya suka

satu lg hal..adoiyai manusia...
makin moden makin xberadab.
klu Islam ssh nak ikut, helo
kata melayu, melayu pun ada adab tau..
banyk adabnya..
jaga la adab...

mgkn ak pun buat ayat kat ats ni xberadab.
so sorry guys...

p/s: tetiba rasa mcm slh sorg psrta masterchef allstar tu...adoi! pangaruh xbaik btul!
astaghfirullah~ if anyone hppen to read this post, istighfar bnyk2 k.

2014 yang optimis

tetiba...
bro bwk blk cite psl pak sheikh (hosmet dia yg pndai msk)

ibu: tgk long, laki pn pndai msk. ko xtcabar ke?
me: sikit pun x...
lil bro: klu cmtu kak long kena pastikan suami kak long pndai msk la
ayah: dia pndai msk long, ko xnak?
me: no thanks. yg sdia ad nk tlk mana. (smbil wat muka)
ibu, ayah, lil bro: . . . . . . . . . .

end of conversation.
sume senyap smpai mlm.

i got lost while never losing my way

OK
i have this one thing in my mind, always
i wanna be a successful housewife
but i can only use this phrase
"_ IF I WERE a successful housewife_"
(if u know what i mean)

whatever it is, alhamdulillah...
Allah's plan is the best for me! ^^
2014 - be more optimistic la~

read

i started reading
OMG
i read!
seriously i read!
almost everything!
anything!

nowadays,
me is not me
because i wonder all day
all night all week all month
did u see what i see?
did u hear what i hear?
did u feel what i feel?
last month, i saw a rainbow,
did u see it on your sky?
it's not actually your sky
because we are under the same sky
i read and read and read
last week, i heard strange sounds
real close to my ears
was that you?
no way it's you
i read a lot more and
yesterday, i felt so lonely
at that moment, were u happy?

Oh Allah...
i seek for Your guidance~

p/s: u know all these are just my illusion bcoz life is full of illusions right